my Affirmation
"i patiently follow the guidance of my higher self on the path to enlightenment."
i've been wanting to change my nickname on FetLife for months. i finally decided what i wanted and asked Sir if i could change it. He agreed but then i had second thoughts so i did what i always do, stall. So tonight He asked me if i had changed my name yet, i told Him i was really having trouble making the decision, His response, pull up the email and do it RIGHT NOW, I want to see it done. And this is why i love Him, the decision i was agonizing over He took complete control away, one less thing for me to stress over.
So, my new name on Fet is -morgaine- i know, not too original but i truly hated my old name.
If you want to friend me on Fet please just send a quick message and let me know that you know me from my blog, i have my profile locked so that only my friends can see my pics (sorry, there really aren't any good ones anyway) but it keeps the trollers out.
If you aren't on Fet, why not? There is a lot of good stuff out there, it's free and can be totally anonymous if you choose (and i would suggest you do at least to start).
We have a subgroup on FetLife called Kinky Over Forty, it's just a group of us who get together for various activities. We have discovered a trivia night at a Mexican restaurant that is a bunch of fun. So, tonight is Kinky Over Forty night!
We'll meet for dinner and then trivia, it's always a good time, a great group of folks, gotta act mostly vanilla, although we get some great kinky side jokes in.
For that reason, my post for tonight will probably be late. We're going to go and "play" vanilla, have a few beers, and just have a fun time.
Also, looking for suggestions for topics...i can always run over to www.Submissiveguide.com for prompt, she always has wonderful stuff, but i'd rather answer a question sent by my readers. Here in comments or by e-mail at mcmoonshadow@gmail.com.
i always thought of myself as heterosexual, up until about 10 months ago i never questioned that. i met a person online that i thought i had a lot in common with, we talked incessantly for months, i thought she was my best friend, i loved her and i was totally committed to exploring my bisexuality with her. We have parted company, many of the things i thought i knew about her turned out to not be true, some of the values that i thought we shared...we didn't, in all honesty it was the lack of shared morals that ended our relationship, i require complete honesty in everything i do, and that not only holds true to my relationships, but to the relationships that i stand in the background and condone. i wish her well, and only hope that one day she finds out what it means to be totally loyal to your partners and friends, all of them, in all things.
Back to my sexuality. With the departure of what i called, my girlfriend, i'm still feeling a very strong pull to other females. i have changed my sexual orientation on Fetlife from heteroflexible to bisexual because, although i need to have some rapport with my female partner i'm no longer feeling the need for there to be a huge relationship behind that. Now, that might seem to be a bit hypocritical, but i don't believe that is true. i think as long as i am honest with my partners about what i expect from our relationship how can that be unfair to anyone? i don't plan to live in a fantasy world, i want real life friends and partners. i won't abide any partner who isn't honest with all the players in their life. i'm not sneaking around and playing games either online or in real life, i will not tolerate being used to play games behind the back of a loved one. i've been there, it fucking hurts to find out that someone special in your life has lied to you, i don't care if you are on shaky terms or not, it isn't right to lie, NEVER!!!!!! HONESTY in everything! i'll keep you informed as i grow in my bisexuality, it should be a wild and crazy trip.
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