Journal - Sunday

Another day of service, service to a friend who needs support right now, service to Sir in every way, and even service to #2 by providing him a dinner while his wife is out of town.  How do i feel about all this service...totally fulfilled, being useful defines me.

Last night we played, it was a different kind of scene, normally i need a lot of pain to hit space but it seems when i am highly emotionally charged it is different.  Sir collared me, put the ball gag on and then put my cuffs on wrists and ankles...i anticipated that he would use rope but he didn't, he just told me to hold the position and i did.  He used his hand to spank me, then the crop and had moved to the wooden paddle when i hit space, it has NEVER been that easy for me.  i know my emotions are much more on the surface, helping my friend has brought up a lot of memories of my mother, and even Sir has noticed how charged my emotions.


This week is pretty laid back which is good, i know that my friend is going to need even more support as the days pass, i only hope that i can be what she needs.


So, i'll leave you with a quote...

"The most basic and powerful way to connect to another person is to listen. Just listen. Perhaps the most important thing we ever give each other is our attention....A loving silence often has far more power to heal and to connect than the most well-intentioned words."~~Rachael Naomi Remen