my Affirmation

"i patiently follow the guidance of my higher self on the path to enlightenment."

Monday, January 16, 2017

It's Raining Babies.....

Tonight I am dealing with my half brother, he is the product of my father, who left my mother to marry a woman who had played every heartstrings she could have on him.

Many years later, they have a son, a son that they neglected for years, put on heavy duty meds so they didn't need to take care of him and now he is the biggest freaking mess.  He had a baby with his first girlfriend, had a baby with is second girlfriend (that he has now been told isn't his child at all) and he now has impregnated his third girlfriend, she has just recently left him and told him that this baby isn't his a tall.  WOW, can anyone say that this whole group of people are FUCKED up?????  I have had 4 boys, not one of them has impregnated their significant other, not even the ones who are married.  Might I add that he is on disability for being a total fuck up, should he procreate?  NO, NOT ever!

Sorry for the rant, not sure where else I could put this.....

A Holiday Full House

Christmas was awesome!  #2 and his wife came in, we picked up the grandson on the day after Christmas and having a house full of out of town folks was the best!  I was lucky enough to spend hours with the daughter in law when we drove down to pick up the grandson, I adore her like you wouldn't expect!

Christmas went well, lots of food, fun and gift giving.  The grandson insisted on sleeping with me (with the "great wall of China" between us, it's a full length body pillow because he is a kicker)

We had the grandpuppies with us and all went well.

Sir pulled me into correction a few times, times when he knew things were getting out of control with me and I needed to focus, I love that man SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much!

Hope everyone had a wonderful holiday!!

Sunday, December 18, 2016

Ramping Up to Christmas!

Way too long since I have updated and i will try to update at least once a week.

Things are insane here, we have been working on a total remodel on the master bath (my bathroom) getting close to finishing it up, just a couple of small things and waiting until my sister can help me to replace the ceramic flooring in the bath, most of the bath is two 7+' closets that have hardwood flooring so we are well on the way.  The weather is certainly not cooperating, we've had horrible ice and some snow over the last couple of days.

Tomorrow Sir and our youngest are going to pick up firewood, as much as I hate them being out in sub 0 weather it's the last piece into getting ready for #2 and #2.5 to arrive on Christmas Eve, #2.75 we pick up on the 26th.  #1, #3, and #3 are all local so we'll definitely see them....totally psyched!

Now, must's after 1:30 in the AM and I'm whooped.

Goodnight all!

Tuesday, May 31, 2016

Making Everyone Play Nice

So.....not posting as often as I have in the past....might be because my life isn't nearly as exciting as before.  

The kids (second son and his wife) have sold their house in St. Louis, bought a new one in Oklahoma City, they are currently in corporate housing until they close.  We're starting to hammer out the details of the grandson's visit, it seems like it will be many hours on the road.

I'm having dinner with the DIL (daughter-in-law of my first son) tomorrow night, we've had a very rocky couple of months, I'm hoping to smooth things over before my son's b-day party on Saturday night...not sure I can do it, she seems to have an agenda that runs parallel to our family's values.  I hope we can work it out, the divide has been long and hard (more than 6 months) but at least we have maintained a relationship with our son through this, I just need everyone to play nice!

Off to bed I go.....I hope everyone is well!

Monday, April 18, 2016

My Heart is Breaking!

I'm trying so hard not to be sad.  When our #2 son graduated from college last year with his two degrees (Math and Computer Science) we knew there was the possibility of him moving.  He's worked since graduation here in St. Louis with his older brother....unfortunately he has not gotten the opportunities with the company that he interned with.  He has applied to and received an offer from a HUGE aerospace company in Oklahoma City, OK.  There is basically no way that he can turn down this opportunity, they are almost doubling his salary and offering him an opportunity to work in an environment that is amazing.

They are putting their house on the market tomorrow and will be moving soon.  My heart has broken!  Not only will he be moving but his wife, their dogs and more daughter-in-law's son will all be relocating.  I'm trying so hard to show a strong face but my heart is broken....guess this means I will be doing a lot of driving!

Wednesday, March 9, 2016

Ugh....still puppy training!

The last couple of days have been divine....I have been even more in tune to Sir, is that even possible?  We are working together to train the puppy, Sammy by name but we have started calling him Lucifer, he seems to like the new name!

We took both pups to have their nails done, yay, they both were awesome at the groomer and he even commented on their good behavior!

Now i am headed to bed, i hope everyone is doing well!

Thursday, February 18, 2016

Ugh, The Dentist Again!

Today was a dentist day, yuck!  My claustrophobia makes the dentist extremely difficult.  Fortunately i have a great dentist who works with me, i wear a blindfold (yes, the leather one from the dungeon) and my Beats noise cancelling headphones, the dentist and technician just push my head around as needed and only talk to me if they really need to.  i listen to my dungeon playlist and try to meditate.  Strangely, the tech told me today that I have an awesome playlist, apparently she could hear it.

Sir was home today, normally he would be in the office on Thursday but they were blowing up a bridge across the river that he needs to cross and he didn't want to get stuck on the wrong side.  Dinner tonight is a salad with roasted chicken...hope he likes it!

Saturday, February 13, 2016

Sir Bought Me A Puppy

Seems a lot of time has passed and i haven't been on here...i needed to make some major changes in my life, stuff i was holding on to that were just not healthy for me...i made the changes and i think i'm in a better place for it.  

Sir and i are still strong, our M/s relationship is evolving, i like to think that it's because we are both comfortable in our positions....i don't need to be told what i need to do, i just know it and because i want to make life as easy as possible for him it just flows.  i think the fact that we are back to being "empty nesters" again and that he is working from home 3 days a week also makes it a smooth home life.

Now to the fun news....Sir got me a puppy!  He's driving me insane with his puppy antics but i absolutely adore him!  His name is Samuel L, and we call him Sammy.  In this pic he is 4 months old.

Well, tomorrow is Sir's b-day (yep, he is a Valentine's baby) so we're taking him out for pizza.  All the kids will be there except #4 who is still out of town at school.  So, gotta run, I hope everyone is having a great weekend and that you all have someone to love for Valentine's Day!

Sunday, October 11, 2015

The "Little Man" and Our Honeymoon!

This week is going to be insane.  The grandson arrives tonight and since I am his primary caregiver while he is here I'll be plenty busy with him, don't get me wrong......I love that little guy to pieces but I have soooooo many things to do!

We're leaving on Thursday for Costa Rica, a 17 day trip, I'm calling this our honeymoon, we never had one and we'll be at a resort when we celebrate our 31st anniversary on October 22nd, so in my mind.....same thing!

I'll update with pics as I'm able, I know our internet will be sparse (we are staying in treehouses for a couple of nights!

Monday, February 23, 2015

Trying to Catch Up

Wow, has it really been that long since I updated?????  In all seriousness....I have had a shit ton of things going on that

I just wasn't ready to share, I'm still not.....but I do need to get back to it!

Sir and i have been withdrawing from a lot of the lifestyle events locally, just need to step back, and reevaluate what groups we want to continue with and which are not really healthy for us.  That isn't to say that those groups aren't right for the people in them, just that they don't really fit for us.  We used to be ok with ignoring some of the things that the group stood for but not so much any more.  We still have plenty of lifestyle friends and things that we can attend, we have our own dungeon so we don't need an event to play so now we are just being more selective with our time, and spending way more time with the family which is a definite plus!

Our kitchen was finished in time for Thanksgiving and the rest of the holidays.....yay!  Sir did an amazing job on it.

These are without the backsplash which we completed a couple weeks later (a tan marble subway tile)

Tomorrow is my day to check on remissiva's house and pick up her mail, brrrrr it is so cold that i am dreading it!

Have a wonderful night all!