Tuesday Night Bubble Bath

Today i took Sir all the things he forgot this morning and to thank me...he took me to lunch at the Cheesecake Factory...YUM!  Came home to do the laundry and make dinner.


i made Sir fish and chips for dinner and now my house smells like fried food, yuck....i just lit a candle melt that is sugar cookie scented...a Christmas gift from lass LAST Christmas...hope it helps!

So, as i soaked in my yummy bubble bath i came to realize one thing...last year this time i was "hot and heavy" into an online relationship, i hurried through all the fun things in life to get back to my phone and computer.  Now, mostly it was to be "supportive" of the incredible amount of drama in her life but what i have realized is....what a waste of time!  i don't even know if said drama was really happening or if she just worked really hard to always have drama in her life...i think it was the mom in me that kept me in that relationship, being supportive for her was like taking care of one of my own children...but really, my kids are much more able to handle their own drama...so by creating healthy functional children i think i felt a gap...i NEEDED someone to help, it's taken a while to realize this.  Why did it take me this long to realize this....because i NEEDED to feel NEEDED.  i don't any more...i just took an hour long bubble bath that rocked...and not once did my kids need me, i have four sons and the four of them combined have less drama than this one person....i could relax, this is what i need in my life, responsible adults who are not constantly in drama, i worked my ass off to get my children to this point, i should sit back (or sit in the bubble bath) and enjoy the successful people that they are!


With that i'm off to continue planning ss's going away dinner.  i hope everyone has a great night!