Sleepless Nights Blog Update

Well, there is one positive (or maybe not so positive!) thing about not sleeping, it gives you plenty of time to think (or overthink)  i've been thinking back over our last couple of years in the lifestyle.  And i will preface this with......this is only my opinion, don't like.....don't read!

Now, i won't lie, part of this was brought to the forefront when i was talking to a fellow sub who is married but not to her Dominant, he in turn is married and not to this sub.  Their respective spouses do not know about their participation in the lifestyle.  i was talking with the sub because her Dominant had some pretty urgent medical needs requiring him to be hospitalized for several days and to now be home getting rehab and unable to meet with her.  She kept stating that i had no idea what she was going through because if my Dom was sick or injured i would be able to take care of him...i tried to be patient with her but eventually i was fed up with it.  Yes, if Sir needs anything i would be there for him, but she (and her Dom) have chosen to maintain their relationship outside of their marriages, they entered into the arrangement with the knowledge that neither of them was willing to tell their spouse and that they would not be leaving their spouses...so, i'm being told that i could never understand her distress, well, hell yes, i can't understand...but this is what you signed up for.  At that point i was pretty much done, i'd like to say it was all the lack of meds but it wasn't...damn it, i have earned the right to take care of my Sir in the good and in the bad, just as i know he will take care of me.  i'm pretty much done with my relationship with this sub, i've tried to hold on to the friendship through a lot of diversity (not the least of which was her Dom hitting on me and then denying it when Sir confronted him) Done, done, done....i don't need this drama in my life.

Also, while i'm being philosophical...i was thinking about a couple of lifestylers i know that have been pushed to abandon some of their very strong personal beliefs...most notably a friend who was married, Dom/sub, he pushed her into a poly relationship with his best friend...9 months later and he left her because he couldn't handle the the fact that she was sleeping with his best friend too...it was just a little bit later that the best friend left her too...poly wasn't something she was looking for and really not something she wanted.  It makes me appreciate that much more that Sir understands my limits and the reasons for those limits.  Locally we've had a surge in poly relationships, mostly from folks who have been in the lifestyle a while and are branching out, most of the relationships don't seem to be going well (although i can say i do know one that i think was pretty much a perfect fit) seems as though maybe people are jumping in without thinking it all through, maybe with a bit more planning these relationships would be going better.  Don't get me wrong, i'm not anti polyamory, i know it wouldn't work for us but hey, every relationship is different!


Ok, rant over!  Beyond that, i had a quiet day, went out and got waxed, ouch!  Cooked dinner, cleaned up, made Sir's lunch and then took a bath to get rid of the extra sticky wax.


Our party for Friday night was cancelled so we have a light weekend, just a BBQ and play party on Sunday.  i think we may try to have dinner with Sir Michael and suzi on Friday or Saturday but otherwise we are free.


Have a great night all.


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