That Feeling is Creeping Back In

Over the last month i ran out of my main medication for my bipolar, the mood stabilizer.  The mentoree gave me what she had and i messed around with my dosage to try and stretch it until today, the day our insurance kicks back in.  i can feel the fact that my levels aren't high enough, i'm irritable, panicky, and unable to focus for very long.  i woke up this morning feeling the panic very strongly.  Fortunately our insurance went into effect today and i was able to pick up the proper dosage, the bad part...Lithium takes several days to weeks to level back out in the blood stream. i'm hoping that since i didn't go completely off that this time will be much less than if i had stopped entirely.  Really hoping that with the full moon on Monday and my grandson being in town that i can stay at least level enough.  i'm going to ask Sir to take me to the dungeon tonight, that seems to help and if he agrees i'm hoping that the up and down of my moods will be minimal.

Went to the grocery store today, as i was loading my groceries into the back of the truck two adorable young men met behind me and exchanged a quick kiss...they then looked at me as if expecting me to complain...really? i thought it was adorable but the area we live in is so damn pretentious i can see why they would be worried.  i just gave them a smile and a small nod. 

We're grilling steaks tonight to celebrate Sir's last day of working long days, YAY!  Tomorrow night the grandson will be here, can't wait!!!!!  Now if i can get a good beating in before tomorrow...life will be very, very good!  Enjoy your night all!