Venting!

Just took what i was hoping was a long, relaxing bath....it was right up until Porn Star Dancing came up on my play list...my question.....after 4 months why do i still have triggers for the ex?  i guess i should qualify that she offered me a lap dance to this song at the first event we were supposed to meet at.  That didn't happen just as the second didn't happen but i still get all weepy when i hear this song....when does that go away?  Most of the time i'm fine...there are just a few triggers and i'm really getting sick of them!  i guess my problem is that when i commit i commit.....it has always been that way.  Any way around it i'm tired of the reminders!  Best thing is that i know she doesn't really read this so i can vent to you guys without her reading!