i am morgaine, a SAH 24/7 consensual slave for 5 years, married to my Dominant/Husband for 29 years. We are a monogamous couple with the exception that i am allowed to have female sexual partners to fulfill my bisexual needs. Our TPE is 24/7, although our practice is modified when our children are present they all are currently living on their own or away at school. We are very active in our local community and welcome online friends as well.
my Affirmation
Thursday, September 8, 2011
MSF
Wow, as usual the Forum was highly emotional. There were tears but there was also a lot of introspection. Some of the women whose submission i respect the most, came with doubts about their own level of submission. i guess we all struggle with identity issues and fears that we aren't enough for our Dominants. It would be very interesting to see if the Doms at the Dominant Dialogue would answer the question the same as their submissive did. Obviously we'll never know since the two meetings are kept strictly apart but it would be interesting to see.
For me, i know that i am nowhere near the level of submission that i seek, but to be honest, Sir is not ready for that level either, we're making this journey together. One of my friends had a great suggestion tonight, she said that at the last event she gave up complete control to her Dominant, everything from what she would wear, the classes and dungeon time selections, even what she would eat. He took every single choice away and she said that she was in a type of subspace that lasted the entire weekend. i just sat down with Sir and He has agreed to that for Spanksgiving. At the last event, Beat Me in St. Louis, He took away many of my choices, but not everything, so this will be different for us.
As always, i'd love to hear from you about your feelings on your level of submission.
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I truly enjoy reading your blog… you, that never wanted to do a diary page and laughed that I was ordered to do one every day.
ReplyDeleteAs for my level of submission I do not really know what I would wish my level to be.
Having a wonderful Master who knows what I need will determine what my level needs to be... or so I have been told...LOL
My guess would be total and I am fine with that with him.
As you know that question and many others will be answered when I finally get to London.
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ReplyDeletei think you will be surprised when you actually meet in person...the sense of fulfilment in serving and seeing the look on His face is unbelievable, that's exactly what i expect will happen for you when that time comes! :)
~~morgaine